Love love, hate my computer!

Hello folks,

My computer drives me crazy. It’s a daily annoyance. Almost nothing makes me as angry grrrr – as my computer when it doesn’t work or do what I want. Because I know it’s not sensible I will not smash it, but sometimes I have to hold back the urge to do this ha ha!

I most admit, I am of a generation which didn’t grow up with computers. Furthermore I am, what we call in Holland, an ‘Alpha’ person. This means I am not good in mathematics (‘Betha’) but in f.i. languages. Math was always complete abracadabra for me ha ha. I was glad I could drop it after 4 years at high school (12-18 years).

That I have managed to learn to work on windows was a huge personal victory. When I got my Apple computer, at the beginning working on it drove me crazy. Everything was different from what I was used to. To me there was nothing ‘organic’ about it. I even considered selling it again in the beginning…. Really…. Okay, I learned to manage it. Then came Garageband and now Logicpro as musicprogramms for my computer. Being a ‘computerdinausaurus” I learned to work with these systems with pure perseverance. But there it did not stop. All these programms have updates in general to make things ‘better’ or ‘easier’ . Well not for me. These updates simply drive me crazy too and really sometimes desperate. Does anybody out there recognize this????

Happily my husband helps me out, but without him I would often not know what to do. Especially when the programm gets stuck. So I apologize to everyone who asks for help in my blog when they have computerproblems because in general I have no clou. I really wish it was different. Please forgive me.

I see that the government and companies are all changing the business from personal contact to digital contact. Our whole society is being digitized. Taxes, insurances, all the information of the government and hospitals etc. I think it’s unstoppable, but also think that measures have to be taken. We have to protect all these people who are not good at using computers. For some people it’s just impossible to learn to handle a computer. And what about all these people with less chances for education or people who become more and more forgetful because of a disease or just because they get older. There are so many criminals out there. I get so many fishing-mails! I know already a few people who suffered from ‘ransom blackmails’. They lost all their peronal data including pictures of the children. Ofcourse back-up, back-up, back-up, but still….

There is so much private information on our computers. We do our banking on our computers. Who will help when we are not able anymore to track all the changes. When we forget our passwords or lose the people we trust to help with the computer when it’s f.i. stuck or new software has to be installed. This is not something we must leave to nice volunteers who want to help. I love people but when it comes to money I am less convinced of the good intentions of everyone. How can we safeguard our interests. For I am convinced that when we are lucky enough to reach a high age, most of us will not be able to remember all the actions to be performed.

Maybe it’s an idea to establish certified institutions where these services are offered for a reasonable price. Bad things can always happen but at least the chance of fraud is smaller and there is an organisation which can be sued in court??? It could be a public-private cooperation where the government sets the legal frameworks.

Well happily my computer is working now.

Hope you have a beautiful day!!!!

Warm greetings, Jellaso

P.S. I am working on a subscriberslist. But as you will understand, this is also a big challenge for me ha ha.


Protect our Freedom: May 5, 2017: the celebration of 72 years of Freedom!!!

Hello everybody,

Tomorrow we celebrate that we live free of oppression and in freedom. It’s the day our country was liberated in 1945 from our occupiers and the end for Holland of the Second World War which lasted 5 years. May 5 is also a day to reflect on the importance of freedom and to realize us how vulnerable and precious our freedom is and to reflect on the lack of freedom in other parts of the world. We must never take our freedom for granted and have to continue to Protect Our Freedom Song Protect our Freedom

May 5, means a lot to me. It’s important to never forget the horrors of war. The number of people who died (civilians and soldiers) are estimated between 50 and 70 million and approximately 60 countries were involved! I start to believe that it’s very exceptional that we already live in freedom for 72 years. I wish mankind had learned a lesson of this war but well, what can I say.

On May 4, today, we always commemorate with several ceremonies, all the people who died and the brave men and women (Dutchmen and Allies) who fought for our freedom and even gave their lives to free our country. This evening at 8 o’clock there are 2 minutes of silence. An impressive and to me emotional moment. I will not forget!

I dance, I sing
I feel free
The wind in my hair
The sun in my face
Happy I can be
Who I want to be!

The Dutch national flag hangs half-stick on the 4th of May

Democracy and majority and minority issues

Hello again,

This is a difficult subject. People always say the minority has not to be overruled by the majority when it comes to decisions and the execution of these decisions. But this is just too simple. Right now I have this feeling that the minority with their opinions are starting to overrule the debate. Ofcourse we have to guarantee that people are free to believe what they want or may say what they want. But it’s impossible to govern a country when no decisions are taken. And for that reason we need good legislation to prevent us for bad decisions and people who want to manage the country with bad intentions. But before I go on I want to seperate two things.
There are ‘technical’ minority and marjority issues and there are issues coloured by f.i gender and religion.

This time I talk about the ‘technical’ majority and minority issues. Ofcourse there are many ways in which decisions can be taken in a democratic environment. I narrow it down to 4 common types:
1. Normal majority of votes
2. Absolute majority of votes
3. Weighted majority
4. An extra weighted majority for far-reaching decisions

1. Normal majority of votes
The majority is 50% of the votes plus 1. But it doesn’t take in account the people who f.i. did not vote or neutral voters. I would never recommand this for far-reaching decisions. As I will also explain at point 2. You should think this is a no go for decisionmakers. But this is actually almost always the fundament of a referendum!!!! As a simple calculation: If there are 100 voters and f.i. 60(%) of them will vote, the decision is taken by half of 60(%) plus 1. So actually only 31(%) have deceided and not 51(%) of the hunderd as is often suggested. So in my opinion in this case ‘the people have not spoken’. Ofcourse we can say all the people should have voted. And you know I think they should. And it’s a must when there are elections. But asking people to vote on all these subjects in referenda, and make time to go and vote and understand what the issue really is about, is just too much demanded.

2. Absolute Marjority of votes
The difference with point 1 is, that it’s also 50% plus 1. But it takes in account people who abstain from voting, neutral voters and – if so determined – the absent voters, to determine whether half of the votes have been reached. This is sometimes used in large companies with shareholders for important decisions. This is better than option 1 but I won’t recommand this either. And it’s unenforceable at country level.

I tell you why I don’t recommand options 1 and 2 unless it’s used for decions which are not far reaching. Whether you deceide to go on holiday (sailing or this resort) it’s asking for half of the people to sulk or to feel confused and neglected. It devides the community. Also as a manager it’s important to create extra time to improve consensus for major changes like f.i. an intended reorganization. Because without enough consensus people are just silently going to sabotage or just not going to carry out the decisions made and it will not benefit the atmosphere between the colleagues either. The more people approve of the changes suggested, the better. This is on microlevel but on macro level the same happens in society. Ofcourse it’s impossible to please everybody but all the same, I would never recommend this option. There simply is not enough support. So you understand that I really think it’s not okay when decisionmakers deceide to ask the people by referendum!!! to f.i. leave the European Union (Brexit) and that with a normal majority of votes!! Only 51,9% were positive to leave. This is – in my opininion – not a solid basis for the future.

3. Weighted majority
This means in general that more votes are necessary before a decision is taken. Often is chosen for 2/3 of the votes but it can also be a form of step by step decisionmaking with several clauses to assure a decision will be taken with more support of the people or members. This is much better. Ofcourse there is a balance. Decisions can never be taken quickly when many people are involved. So 80 or 90% would make the country unmanageable. But I want to hold a plea for 2/3 at least for major decisions. Especially because non-voters are in general not taken in account.

4. An extra weighted majority
In Holland this is f.i. for changing the Constitution. It’s an extra secured procedure where the Parliament has to take a desicion twice. We call it the first and second reading. This is because our Constitution is the fundament of our society and contains the most important principles and assumptions/rules of our nation.
There are 7 steps which have to be taken to change any aspect of the constitution:
1. The Government or 1 of the members of the Parliament (2nd Chambre) submit an amendment.
2. The Second and First Chambre (I wrote about this before in my blog about Elections, my song Protect our Freedom, Spring
and my song Just Lazy) will vote about this with a normal majority.
3. The 2nd Chambre is being dissolved and there will be new elections. By this way the people/voters can have their say
about the proposed changes.
4. In the new 2nd Chambre this amendment will be treated again.
5. The Second and First Chambre have to agree with this proposal with at least 2/3 of the votes.
6. The new amendment will be ratified (administrative part).
7. The new amendment is published in a special State magazine “het Staatsblad” and will come into force of law.

What I also want to emphasize is that whatever votingsystem is used, it’s not only important to be a good looser but also to be a good winner!! An important condition to get more support for the measures taken.

It’s not only a difficult subject but also difficult to translate. So I sincerely apologise for the mistakes I probably made in my English ha ha.

Till next time,

greetings, Jellaso

Freedom Again

Hello again,

Thanks a lot for your reactions again.

As I started my blog I had this idea of a kind of travel through my life just like I do with my music. My song Fighter (text ‘Don’t give up’) is inspired by the story of a suicide attempt of the owner of a shop I used to visit. But ofcourse it’s also written for everybody having a hard time in general as is my song Win or Loose (text ‘Know behind fear hope always shines’). One of my latest songs which I’m recording now is about Alzheimer. When you’ve read my last blog you understand why.

Writing this blog made me realize more than before, that freedom is a powerfull thread in my life and has a lot of impact on the choices which I made and make.

When I was young I ‘wanted to break free’. I had no money so I didn’t run from home was sensible and knew the only option for me was to finish school. It felt like a liberation and a new start when I went to the University and had my own living. I finished University and always loved to have my own job and my own income. So having a job became leading in my life. This feeling of being able to leave when I want and – another important word – to be independent has always been a strong guide. It was hard when I lost my job because of just bad luck. This period without a job, I still work a lot… and the fact that I am getting older, throws me back to the question what I really want to do with the rest of my life. I worked very hard, travelled a lot for work and had not much time for other things besides my work. I never played the piano, I did not work on the songs which were in me because I have always chosen for the security of a regular income. For the first time I am doubting. I have greatly undervalued the ‘child in me’. I see now how much the creative side brings and am thinking about writing a book again. I started writing a book 15 years ago but didn’t finish it. I have more perseverance with my music now and have this drive to have my music heard. But I also have more time to do it! As I said before I am standing at a crossroad. Never thought it would be so hard to change the usual ways in my life. My old life is still pulling on me.

So, and that’s the point I want to make today, it’s not freedom either when we choose for a job out of fear! And ofcourse we have to pay the morgage, have a responsability towards our children and partner etc. I hope for you, that you have found a good balance in life between you dreams and obligations! And that you sometimes dare to change your destination!

Warm greetings,

Jellaso (
Song Fighter mp3 (Soundcloud)
Song Win or Loose mp3 (Soundcloud)

Enjoying the wind and waves on the beach of Scheveningen

About aging

Hello everybody,

Thanks again for your reactions. I read them all!!

I am sitting behind my computer and feel exhausted. I want to write about a different type of freedom and old age. The freedom we lose when we get more and more dependent on other peoples help. Which is ofcourse also the case when we are so unfortunate to get (seriously) ill.

The reason is that we have had some hectic weeks behind us. The parents of my husband are still alive. My sweet mother in law is 86 and gets more and more forgetful. My father in law – who is also 86 and played 4 times a week tennis! – takes care of her. And ofcourse it is becoming more and more exhausting to him. I see the struggle with them as with my own parents who died a long time ago, when the moment comes that they have to face the hard truth. That they become dependent of others because they can’t drive a car any more or can not put on their stockings. Even worse when it becomes intimate and they need help with washing etc. and (kind) strangers are walking around in the house to help.
Being independent is as you know important to me. So I feel a lot of empathy with this struggle.

Well what happened. We were very focused on our mother in law. But than the unthinkable happened. My father in law stood up from a chair, became unwell and fell very unfortunate. As a result he had to stay in hospital for 2.5 weeks and we feared for his life. But in the same time my mother in law could not stay alone at home. So the family has been there (sleeping, cooking etc.) for almost 3 weeks. And the children don’t live nearby! But it was extra exhausting because besides the worries, decisions have to be taken which have impact on the life of their parents and their freedom. And ofcourse because not everybody has the same idea about the necessary solutions, the parents are reluctant and the realisation that they as a child are starting to take care of their parents now.
Its confronting but for me also very recognisable. I had to deal with the same issues with my brothers when my parents got older and died.

I sometimes wonder how I will react to the fysical changes when I get old(er). Hope I will be sensible and f.i. stop driving a car when it’s no longer possible. My father parked used to park his car everywhere when he was at high age ha ha. I can laugh about it now but I was always worried he would cause an accident where others would be involved. Will I take measures and use this rollator, buy a much smaller house or go in time to a care home, etc. etc. I hope I will, but maybe my parents and relatives thought the same when they were younger…..
Well for now the situation is under control and we are all happy my father in law is at home again.

Till next time,

Warm greetings, Jellaso

Picture of the welcome home flowers.

Election after burn

Hello everybody,

I really like your reactions. Happy I could help some folk with my content!

Well in the meantime the elections are over and I feel pretty relieved. Common sense has ruled and almost 80% of the people have voted, which is a lot. I am proud to say that the middle parties have won. I personally don’t favour people with extreme opinions. Like I stated before, in my opinion people with extreme opinions are often less open minded for discussions (dialogue) and other points of view. I was also proud because there was a big diplomatic issue with Turkey in the days before the election. I am happy that it didn’t polarize our political landscape.
It will still be a hell of a job though to form a stable government for there are 6 parties larger. To be continued.

The diplomatic incident has also made me aware, how vulnerable people are when it comes to reliable independent information. Many leaders of countries want to get their point or make others look bad by falsification of evidence or history. It just happens too much. And too many people who get only one sort of information will take it for granted. What worries me even more is that the technical progress makes it easy to falsify the facts. For instance I have recently seen this new application which manipulates a face of a person so good that you can’t see that the text you hear is not the text the person speaks. Who invents such dangerous games!!?? Where will this lead us all!?

I am convinced that most information I get is still pretty trustworthy, but am happy that measures are taken to doublecheck a lot of information and distract the misinformation. It are certainly strange developments.

Well you see I am a worrier ha ha ( not to be mistaken for warrior!!!!!)

Last saterday I had several performances in an art gallery and it was fun to do. So with this picture I will finish today.


Greetings Jellaso

Electionday 15 March / Protect our Freedom

Next wednesday (15 March) I will vote. I am still doubting, although my choice has narrowed down to 2 parties. It’s incredible but there are at this moment 27!! parties. When I got my electoral list I had this notion that this list with so many parties is also a reflection of what is going on in our society in general. We are less patient and prepared to listen to other points of view and less willing to compromise. In my opinion somthing which has always been a strong pillar in our democracy. Instead we get angry or sent hatemails. Politicians these days need to have a strong backbone.

In these political parties happens the same. Ofcourse it’s – even in a small party – impossible to agree on all the points in the party programm. What happens is that they ‘just’ leave and found a new party etc. etc. There used to be much less and more larger political parties. This could mean that if they all stay small after the elections it’s difficult to form a stable government. It’s like going on holiday and having to deceide where to go. The more people are involved, the more difficult it gets to go to a destination everybody likes….. Maybe narrowing down the number of parties in the parliament would help!?

When it gets more and more difficult to make decisions as a government and there are always a lot of people roaring around and it takes longer and longer to take decisions because everybody wants to have their ‘say’, the call for a ‘strong’ leader who just deceides by it’s own will get louder as Socrates already noted! And we see this already happen everywhere.

Well, we’ll see what next wednesday brings.

Greetings Jellaso
Protect Our Freedom Popsong


Hello everybody out there,

I felt inspired to write a small blog by reading your comments. For me it was a big thing and adventure to start with this blog. I did not know what to expect. Therefore I am very happy with the respectfull mails I receive and I want to express my gratitude for your kindness. Not that I mind getting feedback. My blog can only get better by that, but as I have stated before, it’s all about the tone in which things are said! To me it’s important to be respectfull to each other and receiving your reactions gives me this feeling that there are a lot of decent people out there.

Today I want to write about my neckless. Although it’s not expensive it means a lot to me and I wear it a lot. Ofcourse like most people I have my ups and downs. What helps when I’m not having my best moment is f.i. hearing music, and looking at positive and encouraging symbols. It are powerfull messages to the brain. They help me to take things less heavy. The necklace stands (as was pointed out to me) for happiness in Chinese and sentences like: I live, I float, I am happiness. And ofcourse….. eating chocolate helps too ha ha.

Greetings Jellaso

About elections, my song Protect our Freedom, spring and my song ‘Just Lazy’

Hello everybody,

got a lot of warm reactions again. It means a lot to me!

You’ll think what have these items in common. I am a person who is often troubled about what is going on in the world. At this moment I am pondering about the next elections in March in Holland and other countries in Europe. In Holland we have a Parliament (2nd Chambre we call it) and every person with new ideas can establish a new party. Ofcourse when they have a mininum amount of votes (we call it an election threshold). So we have a lot of smaller and bigger parties in Holland. The biggest ones in general form a coalition who will govern the country. We also have a 1st Chambre that is involved with new legislation which is presented to them by the 2nd Chambre and they can accept or reject this new legislation. In this way the 1st Chambre controls in a positive way the government.

At this moment the election polls show that most of the voters in Holland don’t know where to vote on. This is one of the latest issues in democracy: many people want all their ideas to be represented by a party and ofcourse there is not one that complies with this standard. There are also many social issues and most of the parties with great programms stay in denial when it comes to these social issues. This makes more peope vote on people like Trump and Wilders than if there had been an alternative. I don’t agree with them but nevertheless respect their opinion. That’s what democracy is about. But I don’t like the way things are said. On the other hand I don’t agree either on parties who say there is no problem at all or state that we all just have to get used to all the new problems and changes without presenting answers. So I keep hoping that there will be a sensible answer of the other parties. Because I really think that they make things worse by denying these social issues and the fear – of all the people – caused by all the rapid changes. When people denie, there is in my opinion simply no room for dialogue, nuance and solutions. So I really wish many people will let their voice be heard and are going to vote. It’s such a powerful right! (‘Protect our Freedom’). Wonder what March will bring….

Well ofcourse I trie not to worry all the time about what is going on in the world. At this moment finally the first springflowers are visible, the days are getting longer and everybody is looking out for good times to come. Happily we don’t know what lies ahead. Only the here and now counts and I realise how lucky I am compared with so many people in the world. So every day I also trie to count my blessings and to enjoy. This is also what ‘Just Lazy’ is about. It’s a typical ‘happy’ summersong with a tropical touch. The people loved the chorus so I put a bit more in it and made some other improvements. I finished this improved version in July 2016. Today I deceided to place it on Soundcloud because the sun is shining and it makes me smile. I hope it makes you smile too!

Link Just Lazy (improved version)

The beautiful Witch Hazel in our garden!

Warm greetings, Jellaso


I got a lot of reactions on my song Protect our Freedom. I would like to thank you all. I do have a request though. I sometimes get reactions in languages I do not know like Russian and I think Brazilian. I do have google translate but mine does not always work. Since I have sometimes no idea what you have written I have deceided not to accept these mails. I apologise for that but hope you understand. I don’t mind when you write ‘bad’ English. I am Dutch and English is no native language to me either….ha ha. To me it’s the ‘tone” that matters.

I would like to intruduce myself to you so you can put the things that I write in perspective. I am 58 and lost my job as a manager a few years ago. It was at the height of the financial crisis and there were no job opportunities at all. So to keep up the spirit, I deceided to do work as a volunteer for Unicef and took singing lessons for which I often use the voicerecorder. In the meantime I discovered Garageband and LogicPro, computerprogramms to support homerecording and songwriting. Suddenly all the pieces came together. I have always had this idea that I could write songs. I had this strange experience that I was dreaming of making whole compositions in my sleep for a long time. And it nagged on me. So I just started and from that moment on I’ve been writing a lot of songs. In general a song just pops up in my head. Going Home on YouTube is a good example of such a song. It is completely how I felt at that moment. The ‘idea’ (part of the melody and text) was sung on my voicerecorder while walking on the beach.

I still don’t have a job but I enjoy to write and compose my songs. It makes me happy to inspire other people. Nevertheless, I sometimes  doubt whether I will go on. It would be nice to earn some money too. So at this moment I am standing at a crossroad. Wonder where I will stand in a couple of years. Hope you will follow me on this new episode in my life.

My message for today is ‘every cloud has a silver lining’. Go for your dreams if not for work than as a hobby. It doesn’t matter whether you are young or old. It’s never too late to start and don’t mind what other people say!

Happy greetings, Jellaso