Thanks again for your reactions. I read them all!!
I am sitting behind my computer and feel exhausted. I want to write about a different type of freedom and old age. The freedom we lose when we get more and more dependent on other peoples help. Which is ofcourse also the case when we are so unfortunate to get (seriously) ill.
The reason is that we have had some hectic weeks behind us. The parents of my husband are still alive. My sweet mother in law is 86 and gets more and more forgetful. My father in law – who is also 86 and played 4 times a week tennis! – takes care of her. And ofcourse it is becoming more and more exhausting to him. I see the struggle with them as with my own parents who died a long time ago, when the moment comes that they have to face the hard truth. That they become dependent of others because they can’t drive a car any more or can not put on their stockings. Even worse when it becomes intimate and they need help with washing etc. and (kind) strangers are walking around in the house to help.
Being independent is as you know important to me. So I feel a lot of empathy with this struggle.
Well what happened. We were very focused on our mother in law. But than the unthinkable happened. My father in law stood up from a chair, became unwell and fell very unfortunate. As a result he had to stay in hospital for 2.5 weeks and we feared for his life. But in the same time my mother in law could not stay alone at home. So the family has been there (sleeping, cooking etc.) for almost 3 weeks. And the children don’t live nearby! But it was extra exhausting because besides the worries, decisions have to be taken which have impact on the life of their parents and their freedom. And ofcourse because not everybody has the same idea about the necessary solutions, the parents are reluctant and the realisation that they as a child are starting to take care of their parents now.
Its confronting but for me also very recognisable. I had to deal with the same issues with my brothers when my parents got older and died.
I sometimes wonder how I will react to the fysical changes when I get old(er). Hope I will be sensible and f.i. stop driving a car when it’s no longer possible. My father used to park his car everywhere when he was at high age ha ha. I can laugh about it now but I was always worried he would cause an accident where others would be involved. Will I take measures and use this rollator, buy a much smaller house or go in time to a care home, etc. etc. I hope I will, but maybe my parents and relatives thought the same when they were younger…..
Well for now the situation is under control and we are all happy my father in law is at home again.
I really like your reactions. Happy I could help some folk with my content!
Well in the meantime the elections are over and I feel pretty relieved. Common sense has ruled and almost 80% of the people have voted, which is a lot. I am proud to say that the middle parties have won. I personally don’t favour people with extreme opinions. Like I stated before, in my opinion people with extreme opinions are often less open minded for discussions (dialogue) and other points of view. I was also proud because there was a big diplomatic issue with Turkey in the days before the election. I am happy that it didn’t polarize our political landscape.
It will still be a hell of a job though to form a stable government for there are 6 parties larger. To be continued.
The diplomatic incident has also made me aware, how vulnerable people are when it comes to reliable independent information. Many leaders of countries want to get their point or make others look bad by falsification of evidence or history. It just happens too much. And too many people who get only one sort of information will take it for granted. What worries me even more is that the technical progress makes it easy to falsify the facts. For instance I have recently seen this new application which manipulates a face of a person so good that you can’t see that the text you hear is not the text the person speaks. Who invents such dangerous games!!?? Where will this lead us all!?
I am convinced that most information I get is still pretty trustworthy, but am happy that measures are taken to doublecheck a lot of information and distract the misinformation. It are certainly strange developments.
Well you see I am a worrier ha ha ( not to be mistaken for warrior!!!!!)
Last saterday I had several performances in an art gallery and it was fun to do. So with this picture I will finish today.
Next wednesday (15 March) I will vote. I am still doubting, although my choice has narrowed down to 2 parties. It’s incredible but there are at this moment 27!! parties. When I got my electoral list I had this notion that this list with so many parties is also a reflection of what is going on in our society in general. We are less patient and prepared to listen to other points of view and less willing to compromise. In my opinion somthing which has always been a strong pillar in our democracy. Instead we get angry or sent hatemails. Politicians these days need to have a strong backbone.
In these political parties happens the same. Ofcourse it’s – even in a small party – impossible to agree on all the points in the party programm. What happens is that they ‘just’ leave and found a new party etc. etc. There used to be much less and more larger political parties. This could mean that if they all stay small after the elections it’s difficult to form a stable government. It’s like going on holiday and having to deceide where to go. The more people are involved, the more difficult it gets to go to a destination everybody likes….. Maybe narrowing down the number of parties in the parliament would help!?
When it gets more and more difficult to make decisions as a government and there are always a lot of people roaring around and it takes longer and longer to take decisions because everybody wants to have their ‘say’, the call for a ‘strong’ leader who just deceides by it’s own will get louder as Socrates already noted! And we see this already happen everywhere.
I felt inspired to write a small blog by reading your comments. For me it was a big thing and adventure to start with this blog. I did not know what to expect. Therefore I am very happy with the respectfull mails I receive and I want to express my gratitude for your kindness. Not that I mind getting feedback. My blog can only get better by that, but as I have stated before, it’s all about the tone in which things are said! To me it’s important to be respectfull to each other and receiving your reactions gives me this feeling that there are a lot of decent people out there.
Today I want to write about my neckless. Although it’s not expensive it means a lot to me and I wear it a lot. Ofcourse like most people I have my ups and downs. What helps when I’m not having my best moment is f.i. hearing music, and looking at positive and encouraging symbols. It are powerfull messages to the brain. They help me to take things less heavy. The necklace stands (as was pointed out to me) for happiness in Chinese and sentences like: I live, I float, I am happiness. And ofcourse….. eating chocolate helps too ha ha.
got a lot of warm reactions again. It means a lot to me!
You’ll think what have these items in common. I am a person who is often troubled about what is going on in the world. At this moment I am pondering about the next elections in March in Holland and other countries in Europe. In Holland we have a Parliament (2nd Chambre we call it) and every person with new ideas can establish a new party. Ofcourse when they have a mininum amount of votes (we call it an election threshold). So we have a lot of smaller and bigger parties in Holland. The biggest ones in general form a coalition who will govern the country. We also have a 1st Chambre that is involved with new legislation which is presented to them by the 2nd Chambre and they can accept or reject this new legislation. In this way the 1st Chambre controls in a positive way the government.
At this moment the election polls show that most of the voters in Holland don’t know where to vote on. This is one of the latest issues in democracy: many people want all their ideas to be represented by a party and ofcourse there is not one that complies with this standard. There are also many social issues and most of the parties with great programms stay in denial when it comes to these social issues. This makes more peope vote on people like Trump and Wilders than if there had been an alternative. I don’t agree with them but nevertheless respect their opinion. That’s what democracy is about. But I don’t like the way things are said. On the other hand I don’t agree either on parties who say there is no problem at all or state that we all just have to get used to all the new problems and changes without presenting answers. So I keep hoping that there will be a sensible answer of the other parties. Because I really think that they make things worse by denying these social issues and the fear – of all the people – caused by all the rapid changes. When people denie, there is in my opinion simply no room for dialogue, nuance and solutions. So I really wish many people will let their voice be heard and are going to vote. It’s such a powerful right! (‘Protect our Freedom’). Wonder what March will bring….
Well ofcourse I trie not to worry all the time about what is going on in the world. At this moment finally the first springflowers are visible, the days are getting longer and everybody is looking out for good times to come. Happily we don’t know what lies ahead. Only the here and now counts and I realise how lucky I am compared with so many people in the world. So every day I also trie to count my blessings and to enjoy. This is also what ‘Just Lazy’ is about. It’s a typical ‘happy’ summersong with a tropical touch. The people loved the chorus so I put a bit more in it and made some other improvements. I finished this improved version in July 2016. Today I deceided to place it on Soundcloud because the sun is shining and it makes me smile. I hope it makes you smile too!
I got a lot of reactions on my song Protect our Freedom. I would like to thank you all. I do have a request though. I sometimes get reactions in languages I do not know like Russian and I think Brazilian. I do have google translate but mine does not always work. Since I have sometimes no idea what you have written I have deceided not to accept these mails. I apologise for that but hope you understand. I don’t mind when you write ‘bad’ English. I am Dutch and English is no native language to me either….ha ha. To me it’s the ’tone” that matters.
I would like to intruduce myself to you so you can put the things that I write in perspective. I am 58 and lost my job as a manager a few years ago. It was at the height of the financial crisis and there were no job opportunities at all. So to keep up the spirit, I deceided to do work as a volunteer for Unicef and took singing lessons for which I often use the voicerecorder. In the meantime I discovered Garageband and LogicPro, computerprogramms to support homerecording and songwriting. Suddenly all the pieces came together. I have always had this idea that I could write songs. I had this strange experience that I was dreaming of making whole compositions in my sleep for a long time. And it nagged on me. So I just started and from that moment on I’ve been writing a lot of songs. In general a song just pops up in my head. Going Home on YouTube is a good example of such a song. It is completely how I felt at that moment. The ‘idea’ (part of the melody and text) was sung on my voicerecorder while walking on the beach.
I still don’t have a job but I enjoy to write and compose my songs. It makes me happy to inspire other people. Nevertheless, I sometimes doubt whether I will go on. It would be nice to earn some money too. So at this moment I am standing at a crossroad. Wonder where I will stand in a couple of years. Hope you will follow me on this new episode in my life.
My message for today is ‘every cloud has a silver lining’. Go for your dreams if not for work than as a hobby. It doesn’t matter whether you are young or old. It’s never too late to start and don’t mind what other people say!
thank you for all the nice comments that I got. It means a lot to me and encourages me to go on.
Last year was a strange year to me. I focused on getting better in singing, making arrangements and working on LogicPro. And I made my first movies for YouTube. I have this strange button in my head which I turned of. Since I did not want to make new songs before learning how to make the ones I already made better.
You must know for me it’s something weird a new song. It’s like it masters my head and sticks in it like this Christmassong from Wham. Whether you like it or not, once you think of it or hear it, you’re just singing it all day ha ha. In oktober I pressed the button again and was amazed that in a few months 3 new songs popped out. I still can’t believe that this is happening to me.
I am recently working on several songs to be released and have deceided to go more (live) on stage. To me writing music is only fun when there is interaction with other people. I can only achieve this by showing more of myself on stage and on Facebook. To be honest, I find that the hardest part of making music. But I am just going to do it.
In december I performed Protect our Freedom live on Stage in Utrecht for a wonderful audience! https://youtu.be/VhPO635g6t0 It’s such fun to sing with a band. The people behind volunteered to shout as the crowd who are getting more and more angry.
I think that I am very priviliged to live in freedom and don’t take it for granted. No system is perfect, that also counts for our democracy. In this quickly changing landscape it can only survive when we dare to re-evaluate it to a modern version which is futureproof. Before you ask me, no I don’t have the answer now, but I hope it inspires you to great answers.
It’s inspired by this beautiful sunny summerweek in which the Dutch became third with football in the World Cup in Brasil and the whole country was excited and partying and a few days later the terrible accident with MH17 (airplane) happened and the country was in shock including me. So much sorrow in so many families. And isn’t is so, that every day terrible things happen to so many people all over the world.
I think that whatever happens in peoples lives, what makes them survive and conquer sorrow and fear, is hope! And ofcourse faith and love.
My hope for you is that you are all well. Have a nice day,
You didn’t hear from me for a while. It has been pretty busy. I have among other things been working hard on my music and finished three songs in studio Moskou. One of these songs is “Going Home” which I released on Youtube and Soundcloud. The clip of Going Home is made on a typical Dutch beach with lots of soft sand, seagulls and children playing in the sand. I wanted to catch the happiness which I fellt while strolling along the seaside in this quiet song https://youtu.be/R48BZkok8Uc
I have also started my own business “Songdream” (www.songdream.nl) to help people write their own popsong. Whether they want to become an artist or “just” like to write a song for a special person or occasion, they are all special to me. I can also help them with things like copyright and all the fuss around recording in the studio, clips and their performance on stage. I love to write my songs and hope they will enjoy it as much as I do.
I hope you are all doing well!
I have been busy with recording lately. Today I released my song ‘Protect our Freedom” on Youtube and Soundcloud https://youtu.be/iYDfWPXTBz
There’s a lot going on in the world. I wrote this song a year ago and it’s still very relevant. I believe, that now more than ever, it’s necessary to stand side by side. Together we are stronger to face and solve todays problems and challenges: the financial crises, attacks on our society, environment, refugees etc, etc. The beats and the ‘crowd’ get louder and louder to emphasize the sense of urgency.
Furthermore I had my first performance on stage at the Vorstin in Hilversum. Although I was pretty nervous it was also exciting. The audience was great!!
I hope you keep following me, best wishes,